A proper post.

Okay,a proper post as i promised.Had been going to Wcega this few days.Got to wake up @ 6.30am for liondance tmr D: . Okeh and after this week will be working till friday. And i should be flying over to korea this saturday but somehow the agency cocked up and idk whats happening now k. So whateverrrrrr not really dissapointing.

Think it through,looked on the brighter side.We’ll still be sisters right pubor ?

Down and everything gone.

Everything is being said already/again.Went down to hv a walk.

” I sat alone beside the pool and then heard a really meaningful song being played fro somewhere,somehow the music stopped halfway but the lyrics continued to run through my heart till then the stick of cig betw. my fingers somehow lasted so long. “

I promise a better post next.

Unsaid.

This morning i typed everything out and i deleted it cause i don’t wish this is be another burden for you.But now i seriously don’t want to keep it for myself anymore.Feelings shld be expressed. I ran out of words to explain my feelings and everything. Alot kept in me but i can’t bring myself to tell you all those stuffs that had been kept. Honestly,i don’t really feel good see-ing you msging him or other guys but im not saying anything cause i know im not in the position to say anything,im not refering to other things.At first i thought i could really congrats you going contact with him agn cause you once told me about how you felt about him but now i dont really feel good but still im happy for you. And at a point of time i thought i’ve really got over you and then till i saw you agn.(i thought everything was over till i realised it has just came back to me)All this 4 years i thought we’ll just remain as best friend , good friend or even sister or brother. And now this is happening. I don’t know what’s my fkn point typing every single thing here as if you’d care.I’ve tried my best to get over you,i’ve deleted your photo in my phone and i just dont know why im still keeping 1 pic of you. I feel really weak when it comes to you. And i really think that you’re like a stranger yet so familiar.You once told me that we’ll remain this way i agreed to it but now i think i cant anymore,i can’t face you as a friend anymore. And theres so much hiding from me. Ok naive enought,i wish you would really come to me and say everything. Whatever it is.

Please tell me to move on if ‘you’ really think i should.
Hope this will be the fkn last time i typing a essay like this.

Home

Sick of being at home. Being resting on my bed for ytd & tdy. Dont even hav the energy to go out. K hope i’ll get well soon. Byeee

Sick.

Vomited the whole day & having fever. When to visit the doctor and got injection -.- . Slept for the whole day.

Town

Went town today. Saw the shoes i want to buy @ River Island. k gna get it either tmr or the day after tmr . and im going to korea in another 1 or 2 weeks more. Hopefully i’ll get the gucci bag before i go korea :D . K whatever byeeeeexzxz.

tell me agn,love me or not. At least i’m more prepared to give up now.